day 11 - what is your favorite quote? how does it relate to your life?

Oh 30 day survey, if only you knew what kind of a person I am, you wouldn't be asking me such funny question.
My favorite quote. I have a lot of them. But the one I always think of being "Better to write for yourself and have no public than to write for public and have no self" - Cyril Connolly. I don't know where this quote is from or from what year. I heard it while watching Criminal Minds and I've remembered and followed it till date.
I always thought it was cool, you know? I would just think about it and be all like "how in the world do people come up with these kinds things?" But I guess it just comes with a lot of time and experience and just experience.
Enough said, let the guy get some credit in this post. CYRIL CONNOLLY, well said ! 

day 10 - if you could only live off of one food and one beverage for the rest of your days, what would they be?

Hands down water and apple. I know it sounds very cliche like but apple is my life. I freaking love apple and I would eat anything related to apple. I think that's the reason why I love pineapple too. And water, it's already a necessity what more is to add to that? I drink like 5 wine bottles of water every day. At times even more. I get so freaking thirsty I don't know why but I just do. I drink a lot of water, even in winter.

So, yeah.. Apple and Water.

day 09 - how old do you think you act? explain

I don't "ACT" ! I am my age and I live the age to the fullest, I mean it lasts only for a year.

Well, I'm seventeen now but I don't go partying and drinking as some people might think that's what a seventeen year old do these days. No, sir. I stay home and think. Kidding, I go out. But I most certainly don't go out drinking. That phase is way past me. People start drinking when they're in their teen years and then later decide to go sober or not, but I started at a very young age and whilst my friends are starting, I've already quit because I've already had all the experience that I need of getting drunk.

I like doing things that I like doing and I don't care what PEOPLE MY AGE do and don't. I'm more of a creative and productive and boring kind of person who does not have a clue of what she's doing or where she's going. Life's more fun that way. 

I guess I'm not certain of how I act. It's just that when I share something to a person older than me (people my age don't understand what I mean or half the time they ignore me) they go "Oh, I've been there", "It's normal", "That happened to me once" and the oh so famous "It's just that you're a teenager now. You'll understand when you grow up". And while that's being said all I think of is "I HATE YOU, YOU SUCK *STAB* *STAB**STAB* ", kidding, I mean come on dude, I know I'm a teenager and I know a lot of experiences are common with fellow teenagers but I'm trying to share. What I'm trying to say is, I think it's because of this that I no longer have that certain age that I "ACT" like. 

Why act like a number when you can act like yourself right? I'm not highlighting act in that sentence because I don't know myself enough to be myself so I act like myself, makes sense? I guess not. 

day 08 - if you could live anywhere, where would you live and why?

If I could live anywhere, I would live right here. I've lived here for 17 years, I know all the nooks and corners and I know all the best places. I mean sure I talk about travelling all the time but that's different. I would travel everywhere but I would still want one place I can return to and be glad.

Kathmandu's a great place to live in. Yes, every place has its downside, Kathmandu having more than one, but I grew up here. I've had my best and worst memories here and I share a lot of experiences here. I would want to go out more without having to worry about what I put on and without my mother giving me that "I get worried you'll get kidnapped" and "I get worried some reckless driver's gonna hit you" speach like every time i go out but up to now I've survived it all.

Naming all the reasons to live here, graffiti would top the list. Where most places consider graffiti a vandalism, here in Kathmandu, they don't care. Sure, some people walk past by it and some disrespect it by pasting posters of movies or some company but there are those some people who actually appreciate the work. Another reason would be, you never get lost. Every place leads you back to the same place. I know it does not sound exciting but picture this, YOU CAN GO EVERYWHERE WITHOUT THE FEAR OF GETTING LOST. I know it still doesn't sound interesting. Without the fear of getting lost? what's the excitment in that, right? But hey, you're alone with a camera and that would be the ultimate thing you would want to do.

But getting back to the point, Kathmandu is a great place to live in and I'm glad to be here. Though Kathmandu could sure use some woods where I could go without the fear of finding some dead body and without the fear of incountering MAOBADIS. 

day 07 - do you read? if so, what are your three favorite books and why?

What do you mean "do you read" ? I find it very offensive for some reason. I don't know why :P
Yes, I do read. But, I have yet to find such three books that I can call my favorite. Well, actually one happens to be THE ILLUSTRATED MAN.
I always thought to myself that if I was not to choose science that I would definitely have a lot of time to go out and read some books. Yes, I said go out and read because there are good book stores near my place. When I was a kid I read a lot of Goosebumps and Ghostville elementary. There were other books too but I don't remember them. But I once remember, there was this one book filled with photographs of all the victims of terrorist attack here in Nepal. There was an exhibition exhibiting all those photos and I really wanted to go. That book was in my school's library. I would take that book everyday and just go through the photos all the time. I even offered the teacher some money for it. He denied it of course. What I mean is, I was all so fond of pictures than words back then. I had very few people suggesting me to read novels or anything that would be good. I would read newspapers because my sister would make me read it, other than that I read nothing.
Now that I want to read I have no books to go through. Well, not entirely true. I have an Anne Frank's book that I need to go through. I'm fascinated with her use of words in such young age however I get tired of her always complaining about things and making things seem so complicated.
Anyways, I shall blog about the books once i find some. 

day 06 - name five things from your wishlist

I wish I could figure things out straight to let you know my 5 others wishes. There are so many things that I think about that automatically becomes important to me all of a sudden. It's not like I am a materialistic person, It's just that I think a lot about what I want to do and what I need to do that I start making a list in my head and I forget about them as quickly as I can.
So, I'm so sorry for this but I think it's just best if I say I don't have any wishes. 

day 05 - at what age were you the happiest?

People would generally go for their childhood, but I think my childhood was pretty rageful. I was always angry for some reason and I remember being depressed at times. I did have my sisters to keep me away from all sorts of trouble that I would have easily gotten into but thoughts of it was never far away. I was quite, hated being social and I'de prefer being alone all the time. I used to go to the terrace where I made a SPOT for myself where I felt like I've left everything behind and I would sit there for hours, writing things, listening to songs or just sketching.
But I'm 17 now and I consider myself to be happy. It's only been a few months since I realized that searching for a reason to be happy is sad and lame. I'm as happy as can be. 
So, my present age would be the age where I was and am the happiest. :) 

day 04 - if you could choose a time period to be born at, which one would it be and why?

Well I don't know how the time period before my time period was, now do I? Anyway, I'll go on about it.

If I was to say the 60's and the 70's I would probably be friends with my own parents. If I was to say the 30's and the 40's I would be friends with my parent's parents. I like my parents the way they are and whoever they are (the last part sounds weird but you know what I mean.). 

But parents aside and thinking about my own, I would go with the 60's and the 70's where psychedelic music and the good vibration roamed the earth travelling in a peace train with a steamy love in the air. The groovy-ness and the hippie-ness, ah yes, I would enjoy it quite pleasantly. I would probably be with bunch of people telling the tales of the peace that only exists in the dreams and the hopes of many. I would attend the Woodstock all high on weed and do some LSD while at it and maybe some acid too. I would have the chance to see, meet and listen to the Woodstock bands in person. I would probably live in the woods with my hairy friends feasting on some shrums. I would even be running around naked in the woods trying to CONNECT with the nature. 

I would most certainly have an interesting life to live surrounded by loving people and such powerful music. Yes, the 60's and the 70's would be quite groovy. So, I would choose the 60's and the 70's where it wasn't just only about sex, drugs and music, it was about sex that meant MAKING LOVE, drugs that meant FEELING LOVE and the music that meant SPREADING LOVE.  

  

day 03 - what band/musician is most important to you? explain why.

I think it would have to be Nirvana. I was not influenced by their lyrics or such since their lyrics never made sense at times. They are just important to me because, I guess it was because of their lyrics not making sense and they did not want people to find some meaning in it. 

They were bunch of dudes just doing their thing, not caring about what people want in music and not caring about what they wrote about. This taught me how to enjoy being myself and not caring about what other's thought about me. Words thrown into their music would strangely be meaningful to me because I was so much into them. "My heart is broke but I have some glue. Help me inhale; I'll mend it with you. We'll float around, and hang out on clouds. Then we'll come down and have a hangover" (dumb), "I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black. Hey wait, I got a new complaint. Forever in debt to your priceless advice" (heart-shaped box) , "I'm so happy cause today I found my friends in my head. I'm so ugly that's okay cause so are you" (lithium), these were some of the lyrics that were so meaningful to me that I found it deep, somehow. 

I remember how I used to listen to Nirvana's unplugged songs that I got hand of somehow and transferred it to my cell phone, everyday and every night. I wasn't a die hard Nirvana junkie nor was I so much influenced by their culture and their trend. I was just very much interested in how they were not interested in words rather just in their composition. For someone who always goes for meaningful songs, I was hooked on Nirvana. They got me past through my junior years without any problem of TRYING TO FIT IN stage. I did not care of what was it that I was doing nor would I care of involving others. I was happy as I could be. 

I bet there are people who would be wondering how in world Nirvana did that. Well, even I don't know. But all I know is, my life started with them. It was after Nirvana that I started going backwards, from pearl jam to bush to CCR to ZZ Top to Janis Joplin to Jimi Hendrix to The Beatles to Bob Dylan to Woody Guthrie and the list continues. 

Nirvana changed my perspective towards music, making me listen to all sorts of songs ranging from different genres and I'm glad to have begun with them. 

So, with no doubt and not even a slightest hesitation (which I usually have when I need to choose) I believe Nirvana is the most important band to me with many reasons that I myself am not aware of while Typing out my explanation.

day 02 - what is your stance on religon? would you affiliate yourself with any?

My stance on religion? Well, to be honest I really don't know what religion is or what is stands for. I always thought religion was a BELIEF that drives people to sanity or insanity, judging by his devotion towards what he believes in.

If religion means worshiping gods and goddesses then no, I don't do that. Though I am very fascinated towards Bhairav and I think that's the only GOD I've had some sort of faithful faith on for some reason. It's not like I don't believe in them, it's just that, even if they do exist I don't think I would do anything about that. I mean I respect their existence and everything but I don't think I would be so devoted in worshipping them and hoping and praying for them to make my life easy and happy. There are countless number of species on planet Earth, which many believe was created by god so don't you think he has enough on his plate to take care of already? You'de just be adding some more problem to him. 

Plus i think religion creates a lot of problem, mainly animal slaughtery. Killing in the name of food and killing in the name of god which is later to be eaten by themselves, there's a difference there. Yes, I eat meat. I eat only chicken though, but doesn't change the fact that butchers butcher them to satisfy my need even if it's for money. 

You know the funny part to this is, God's are against this whole PRAND HINSA, KILLING OF OTHER LIFE FORM and people consider themselves so much into the RELIGION when they themselves are committing sin. Dude, if God's were the one to create everything on this Earth, EVERYTHING, and everything is God's children of some sort, then why the heck would they want you guys to sacrifice their love to them? I'm sorry i said funny. It's clearly not funny. Killing in the name of God, that's just sick.

I think after all this thing, even though not knowing the true meaning of religion and presenting what I think it means, my stance on religion would be "something I would not want to be a part of." 

day 01 - name two significant people in your life and explain why.

Significance of people in my life has a very complicated significant role. I take everything as an experience hence,  their significant role too is my experience with them. But choosing just two experiences to talk about and calling them "SIGNIFICANT PEOPLE" is just something I cannot possibly think of. I love everyone in my life and admittedly I do love the people I hate too. It's these people who make my life the way it is and I am in every way grateful for it no matter how much it sucks at times.
Well, I will be honest, I checked out the meaning of significance in the dictionary. I just wanted to be sure of what is it that I am about to write about so don't judge me. I prepare things very thoroughly.
Any ways, there are far too many people in my life that I call important and far too many people yet to encounter so that I may call them too my SIGNIFICANT PEOPLE. Therefore, everyone is significant to me and if I had to choose just two, I would rather choose none.

for realsies

link :P
http://www.charmroyal.com/tumblr/challenges/  <- the fifth box :)
i'm going to post on each topic given on the list every day.because i too myself realize how much of a crappy stuff i write about :P 

ANNOUNCEMENT

It's been 76 new views long since I last posted WORDS. So what's up? And this time I'm talking to my only ONE follower :P
Getting to the point, I have decided no random posts starting from tomorrow. I created a blog so that I could post things that I actually think about and thoughts that really keep me going. UNWRITTEN THOUGHTS came into existence because of my constant blabbering and rambling and all those other stuffs about my opinion on things that no one else would be talking about. And the other reason was that I love writing and I want to pursue writing, not only writing but photography too side by side.
My friend kind of forced me to create a blog so that it would be easier for me improve my writing flow and also because it's nice for college admission. As weird as it sounds, there are colleges that actually google you out -.- , true fact. so yeah, i'm sorry i did not have anything new for the new viewers even though everything is new to the new people, but again, what I meant was, I'm sorry I wasn't interesting enough :)
starting from tomorrow or after few hours if I get bored, you'll have something interesting to read about :)
also, the texts in my blog are pretty mind blowingly huge, fixing that :)
thanks.

emotion with the nature

whirlpool, wrilpool did form collapsing the two thoughts

blooming flowers, yes the flowers did bloom with the illusion of ever lasting colours

drizzel, it called upon the big guys to tear things apart

wave crashes, yes the non exsisting wave did crash upon the rocks on the shores of the heart. 

imposible metaphore, yes the imposible metaphore were used to describe the feelings bottled inside.

zeus's thunder, zeus's thunder did light the fire upon the tall trees of hopes inside.

death, yes the death did come to the future of the present.

far away land.

it makes me happy to know that someone else is happy in a far off land where flowers grow with a single touch of a hand. it makes me happy to know what someone else is happy on that farewell island where the waves don't crash when there's silence within.

hello lovelies

hello my lovely 37 viewers just passing by without a share or a hello not even a follow. how are you guys today? hope you are lovely as you can be :)
and hello to you good people who still haven't discovered me, my own good old friends who haven't bothered to check out my blog. i still love you guys.
i'm kinda high rite now :P

love love love

i'm in love. yes, i'm in love. it's not with the same guy again and it most certainly isn't with some douchy guy. i just smile and smile because i'm so in love. i don't know why it is but suddenly i feel like the universe has just started talking to me, communicating with me to make me realize that all those times thinking about those selfish substances that would just pretend to make me feel better even though i have to admit it did look cool, are just mere distraction. so i have rejected all and i'm simple and sober as i can be.
if that one person you've loved so much does not return your love at all or just doesn't have the guts to love you back seriously, then seriously, screw that person. think of it, you have the entire life where you meet people who won't exactly replace that person's memory but most certainly can fill in the gape in the heart with the love that that person never did give. sure you feel  devastated thinking how much you loved that person and how you used to be happy. but really, think about it, you're being selfish. you were happy and that's all you saw and you did not give shit about what that person was going through with you around. maybe you made that person's life miserable as hell and all that person could do was nothing cause that person did not want to hurt you since you were happy. didn't think of it that way did you now? just be happy that now you can do what ever you wanna do instead of waiting for that person and also be happy that that person can be happy doing what ever that makes that person happy.
it's a circle of life man, you end up where you were no matter what. only this time, at the end, you go back to the womb of your mother's greatest and grand all mighty mother. so, be in love, feel loved and most of all love them back.
i'm in love with everyone. i'm a love slut if you may :)
and by love i do mean unconditional and non-physical love. well i count hug and handshakes physical so it is kinda physical but over all it's just LOVE.
i love you who ever you maybe reading this or even if you are hovering over my page and just passing by my page.
i mean it,

I LOVE YOU  

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