I'm kinda high but i'm sad. i should go hit some more. or go get some cactus juice. or unicorn poop. they poop rainbows. i should go get some rainbows.

I have whiny friends, funny friends, "wannabe" friends and all sorts of friends. They tell me about their life, they tell me how horrible and painful it is and they cry about it. They tell me about their weirdest experiences and they make me laugh my ass off. They tell me how they are about to buy this and that and act like "oh I don't have money" but they talk about buying things that are out of their act. Yes, just like everybody else, I have all sorts of friends.
I have friends that lie to me about how they will be there for you when you need somebody. I have friends that listen to you when you need to talk or share and I even have friends that actually help me out with my problems. But despite all that, I feel like there is NO ONE when i actually talk about things. I know there are few exceptions but thinking about the number of people I know and I actually care for, I have very few who return the care and love. I mean yeah, "don't expect anything in return" is actually quite meaningful but come on, seriously?
I don't really know what I'm actually writing about nor do I know why. I just need a friend right now. Not just for a movie or shopping or photos but for someone to like come and talk to me and come and visit me and hug me. Sigh, I'm desperate. 

day 30 - what do you imagine your life like at age fifty?

Well, I would love to say have tons of cash in my account and forget shit and just travel but then again if I think of it practically, I would have a family to think about. If I have a kid, ugh, god no! then I guess I would wait for it to grow up and start doing its own thing. You know, career and stuff like that.
Things DEPEND upon so much circumstances to just even imagine things. Plus I haven't really imagined jack so I guess I'll just leave these things for when I turn 50. Oh, only if life would go the way I would plan it to go. I mean it would but I change my mind a lot so it's hard for my life to settle at one point. Poor life, I do so much to make it all confused and lost. But at least I don't call my life a BITCH.
ANYHOO, I don't know :)

day 29 - do you wish for anything at 11:11? if so, what do you wish for? has anything ever come true?

What makes you think I stare at the watch waiting for it to turn 11:11 exactly? I am very bad at paying attention and I get bored easily so, NO, I do not wish for anything at 11:11. 

day 28 - if you could choose to live forever, would you? why or why not?

Live forever and do oh so many things but I bet I'de be pretty lazy. I mean don't people get urges to do things and complete things and plan to do things because of the uncertainty of life? I mean not that I'm saying that's what I do but I mean having a little limit and a little risk makes everything worth it I guess.
So, No, I wouldn't want to live forever. I would let nature take its course because let's face it, we humans HAVE been changing things a lot. And if I was to be found suffering with some sort of disease please don't take me to the doctor.

day 27 - which do you prefer: films or television? why?

I would rather consider YOUTUBE videos or YOUTUBE series or just YOUTUBE actually. I don't watch television cause I just put mine away. Films? They are very very rare. So yeah, YOUTUBE is the only thing that's for me. Why? Because you find literally anything there. Films, soap opera, music videos, cartoons, everything.  

day 26 - choose two: mentally stable, intelligent, attractive. explain why you chose those two

Oh my god, NONE !
Mentally stable? I mean who in the world is mentally stable? A person with the craziest thoughts and the ability to do the most extremest things, that's what I want. Intelligent? If the guy is MENTALLY STABLE, I don't see the chances of that person being intelligent. And Attractive ! NO -.- I don't see how that would be attractive.
A person with a mind with the ability to come and go in and out of the state of insanity, that's mentally stable.
A person who does, sees and presents things in his own way and who respects everything, that's intelligent.
A person who uses his beautiful mind to do, see and present thing in a beautiful way, that is attractive.
Choosing two of the three would just disturb the balance.

day 25 - would you rather date someone plain with an amazing personality or someone beautiful with a plain personality?

Funny thing, I never know what kind of guy I date. Hell, I don't know if I'm even dating them.

But I think I would date someone in the middle. Obviously, judging him will be something I will never be good at but I bet he'll be somewhere in the middle of the two. 

Someone plain as well beautiful and someone with amazing as well as plain personality. Then again things change. So, I'm not really sure about this thing. But whatever, I'll date when I'll date and I sure as hell won't judge the guy. Perhaps I should ! That'll make sure that I don't end up with a douche over and over again. Hmm.. everything's an experience though. 

I would date someone who would take me SERIOUSLY and try and make me talk and not just talk about himself. Yeah, cause I've had enough of that already. I mean I have friends who do that why would I need another person too? 

So then it's settled, someone plain as well as beautiful and someone with amazing as well as plain personality and someone who would take me seriously and talk about both of us equally.  And might I add ; 

DUDE, I LOVE YOU TO DEATH ALREADY !